Sleep Paralysis Combined With A Nocturnal Emission?
I never thought such a thing was possible. I used to have quite a few terrifying sleep paralysis experiences complete with hypnopompic hallucinations (always when trying to wake up, never when falling asleep). They were awful - the most intense fear I ever had. The paralysis, heaviness or being pushed down or stuck too or sinking into the bed, unable to scream, suffocating, thinking I was dying and unable to struggle to break free from the clutches of this awful state. And there was always a buzzing sound, an evil sounding buzz like something vibrating or electric, and I would usually feel tingles with it too. The buzzing let me know it was about to happen but it always took me over too fast before I could react to wake up in time. When I was on my stomach it was not as frightfully intense and the buzzing and heaviness felt like a thick heavy substance traveling from the back of my head down my back. And when I finally did wake up I had to be careful not to close my eyes too quickly or else I would get sucked back into the dream again!
Well, years passed and I got these dreams less often. They would be shorter, less intense, and finally not even scary anymore. I thought I had finally conquered them by planning ways to escape the dream by fighting back, or did I just grow out of them?
Then I found myself 13 or 14 and experiencing what I later found out was a wet dream. At the time I was clueless, but it strangely had some similarities. It was not at all scary like sleep paralysis, but during the dream I definitely felt heavy and weighted down, but much milder, like thick heavy blankets covering me, almost comforting but strange. The dream was innocent enough, nothing rated R about it. A girl appeared from nowhere and we simply embraced. There was no movement but just the feeling of your whole body touching someone and feeling loved.
Now where it got bizarre is the moment I "felt" like the boundaries between our skin vanished and we "melted" into each other, becoming one being. At that point it felt like everything was different, and my heart started racing and pounding. There was no buzzing, but there definitely was the sensation of water or something soothing pouring over me slowly and heavily from the back of my head, down my back, over my buttocks and backs of legs, in waves. Very nice, but weird. But not weird enough until the moment when I felt like I BECAME water myself, and was flowing along in a stream. All this flowing and water made me feel like I had to pee, and in fact I noticed that there was a huge amount of tension "down there" but I was not in control of it. Suddenly it seemed as
if I started peeing, and I was not worried because I thought I was in water. This seemed to last a long time, like I really had to go, and slowly it stopped, but then curiously began again with another flow, and another, in slow pulsations. I had no idea why it was doing this, but as the feeling faded I became aware that I was in bed, lying down, and that I had just let myself wet the bed! That thought jolted me awake to discover something quite different but still embarrassing, but that is another story.
Fast forward to a year or so after that and I am lying awake one sunny weekend morning, barely covered by a sheet. I swore I was awake the whole time because there was no actual dream, so to speak, but I experienced something very odd. I noticed my breathing and heart-beat increase and get heavier and deeper, and I thought "what is happening?" I went to move but found temporarily "stuck" which made me suddenly feel heavier, but it was not scary. I seemed to sink slightly into the bed and the sound of the air in my ears changed (hard to describe). I felt myself getting an erection (I hope I can say that) and I thought that if I struggled to move it would break the "spell" I felt like I was under. This was followed by an automatic increase in pressure to "go" down there and then several rhythmic squeezes/contractions. Then I woke up - a wet dream? Well, yes, the evidence was all there on me, but never in an experience like that before.
Now I have wondered if there was a connection. Wet dreams and sleep paralysis both happen in REM sleep. Sleep paralysis does not HAVE to be scary, so I am wondering if this was some sort of hybrid, like I was at least experiencing some minor lucid dreaming sensations. The only other odd aspect to it was for my first wet dream the sensation that I was wetting myself, which I guess can be explained because I had never felt an ejaculation before that dream. But of course bedwetting is a sleep problem unto itself, and the only connection I have with THAT is the one time when I was 8 and I had an accident, and a couple "close calls" in my late teens when I started to wet the bed, but woke up only a few seconds later. The classic dream that you have to pee and are looking for a toilet, and suddenly feel yourself peeing. In my two cases I'd feel it squirt out and moments later jolt awake in time to stop. Other than that it was never a problem. I used to wonder if bedwetting was also linked with these other experiences until I learned that bedwetting happens during a different phase of sleep, so who knows.